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“Emma isn’t a person. Emma is a place that you get stuck in. Emma’s a pain that you can’t erase.” - Justin Vernon
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Control and Poise
Since August, I have been trying to think more judiciously about the food that I eat, both in type and quantity. I no longer eat pasta or bread, eat much dairy, I don’t eat a lot of red meat, I’ve cut out chocolate and sweet things and for a time I also cut out alcohol. Some of these things are more difficult to sustain than others. Drinking is hard, or at least, not drinking is hard, more for it’s social attributes than for my inability to avoid it. Sweet things are hard to avoid too but it turns out there’s a simple answer to every hard dietary question.
I don’t feel like I’ve lost a lot of weight, but I’ve certainly lost around 10 pounds. Clothes that I haven’t worn for 6 years now fit, my belts don’t. My clothes hang differently, my underwear is more flattering, my face is slimmer, I feel stronger and more energetic. It’s hard to want to give that up for a moment of weakness over a box of After Eights and a pie.
If I want chocolate, I have it. If i want cheese, I have it, but after having none at all, it’s a miracle how small a piece you can have just to satisfy your cravings. There’s something glorious about discovering control with food again. I’ve never been particularly fat, nor particularly slim and food has always been a point of contention with me. I don’t like a great variety of things, I love comfort food, I feel a lot of dissatisfaction with a great majority of healthy things, mainly that my hunger isn’t satisfied so fruit has always been something I’ve ignored for the most part.
Turns out that eating a variety of balanced and nutritious foods does actually make you feel good, curb your hunger and help your mind. I think I’ve always wanted to ignore it as fact because eating mashed potato was so much better. It still is much better, but not better than having a waist, or just the one chin.
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John Constable, Seascape Study with Rain Cloud, c. 1824
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12.09.2011
I was going to start a blog and then I realised that I already had one.
I have just this second realised that the reason why I don’t blog is because I rarely have anything to say. I’d like to say something conversational or share with you a wittiscm from my day, but surely I wouldn’t have to dig around in my brain for that information if I really wanted to share it.
I would rather talk about the man that I have loved for a decade marrying another woman, or the quiet frustration I feel at being single. I’d like to talk about my desires and expectations of others and how they differ from they way I naturally behave in a way that frustrates me. How I want so much to be feminine and kind and even sweet when really all I am is reasoned, direct and well dressed.
I’ve given up drink, red meat, bread, dairy, pasta and refined sugar and I’ve taken up daily fruit and salads. It’s changed me.
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